I have very little natural ability or natural inclination towards meditation. In early life I was unusually wimpy, whiny, and fussy. Also, I was perennially impatient. On top of that, I had a proclivity to be destructive, including towards myself (when I'd get frustrated, I'd bang my head on the sidewalk). I was also pretty mean (just ask my brother).
I actually like for people to know what a poor meditation candidate I am based on the tendencies of my early life. I take it as a positive. If a person like me can be successful, anyone can be successful. You'll hear some of the details in Clip #1. (FYI, a bunch of Yiddish words appear in this dialogue; here are links to their spellings and meanings: kvetch, sitzfleisch, schpilkes, naches.)
I actually like for people to know what a poor meditation candidate I am based on the tendencies of my early life. I take it as a positive. If a person like me can be successful, anyone can be successful. You'll hear some of the details in Clip #1. (FYI, a bunch of Yiddish words appear in this dialogue; here are links to their spellings and meanings: kvetch, sitzfleisch, schpilkes, naches.)
Clip 1 (03:48)
In Clip #2, my mom continues to talk about my earlier
life and the influences on me, and the changes that I went through. We talk
about a famous natural reserve in Arizona called Madera Canyon and the ginormous
grasshoppers I used to collect there. My mom also talks about early influences from the Cornell University Department of
Entomology, which molded my young mind in a scientific direction.
Clip 2 (03:59)
Although there were some rocky points early on, I'm pleased to say that my relationship with my family of origin has been absolutely wonderful for decades. After my dad passed away in the early 80s, my mom asked me to teach her mindfulness. She's been practicing on her own and coming to retreats ever since then. It doesn't get any better than that!
My brother and me at a very early age.
My mom and my dad.
My grandmother holding my mom in front of their house.
I'm guessing the photo is about 100 years old.
The spot where the house was is now under one of the LA freeways. Anicca!
I'm guessing the photo is about 100 years old.
The spot where the house was is now under one of the LA freeways. Anicca!
Update: My mom passed away on the morning of Friday, January 31st, 2014.
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Thank you for sharing some of your story and your Mother's life. She does radiate love and light.
ReplyDeleteEntertaining,revealing,most importantly inspiring. Beautiful lady your mother. thank you Shinzen.
ReplyDeleteI think you're mistaken, that isn't your brother, that's one of the guitarists from ZZ TOP.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! My dad used to call me singing that same song.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your beautiful family. Looks like you have some great genes for health and long life. That will bless us all. - Rev. Jan Chase
ReplyDeletethis is so delightful!
ReplyDeletelove reading about your family Shin
You look so much like your Mom. And yes, you do have her good looks. :) You both are smiling with your eyes. How lovely.
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely tribute!
ReplyDeleteI loved it when you said "I'm still in the destruction business, but it's been channeled in a positive direction!" :-)
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your life in such an open way Shinzen San, much gratitude and love.
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